What is the world coming to?

Gas prices?! Umm...........I thought we were fighting for oil...........or was it revenge.........I keep forgetting.


165 mph winds?! N'Orleans destroyed?! American's dying because of winds and water we knew was coming?! WTF?!

How much money have we spent in the Middle East and how many lives lost?! WTF?!

23 fatal auto accidents in SLO County this summer?! WTF?! Most of them because people were trying to do something while driving, OTHER than driving.

This year we've had a car-jacking at son's school, a bank robbery at the bank two blocks from house, and an old man beaten to death by teenage boys with their skateboards, while minding his own business in his home. WTF?!

This summer I know of 3 very young boys that had brain tumors. WTF?!

Unexplainable. Really. All of it.

$300 at Walmart?! OMG

Why is it SO easy to spend $300 at Walmart???? OK, so I got some groceries and toiletries and my son's new SCHOOL CLOTHS but where the hell did the rest go? Couldn't tell ya'!

Oh I remember something else I got at Wallys; an US magazine. Supposedly Rob Thomas said "I am so not a guy. ..........I don't know anything about cars. ..........I can pick out a Kate Spade bag no problem." Um.......Rob.......you are SO a guy, and a HOT one. I saw you in concert and found you even sexier than I previously thought. And I've never gotten all tingly about anyone who isn't a guy. So there's your proof. I have no idea what a Kate Spake bag is and I am SO a girl.

In other US news; isn't Britney looking fat?! Hellooooooo. Personally I'm glad she looks fat because that's what you're supposed to look like when your pregnant. Right? I know I did and had a damn good time in the process!

I must spend a moment ranting about school starting in August; WTF?! I read Dave Barry's column entitled School on Aug. 8? Are they insane? "and I AGREE. We, as citizens of the USA, have taken a seriously wrong turn with education. Parents blaming teachers, teachers blaming parents, legislators blaming parents, teachers, and the school system. I'd like to blame the legislators. It must be their fault that my 3rd grader (in 2 days) will be pushed beyond reason to prepare for 2 weeks of testing in the Spring. Although I feel sorry for the kids and the parents (myself included), mostly I feel bad for the teachers. They're the one's who have to push our kids to learn multiplication and division in 2nd grade. I'm so looking forward to dragging my son's ass out of bed on Tuesday to throw him into 3rd grade! Uggghhhhhh

Did I say I spent $300 at Walmart????

KEDS ARE HOT

Did you know that KEDS ARE HOT? I just thought they were comfy and cute but a friend of mine set me straight. Said friend was enjoying a festive atmosphere of drinking and laughing and socializing when a guy approached her and said, "KEDS ARE HOT". Thus it was so.

Every week my friend, who is also a coworker, and I will see each other and stick our feet out and declare, KEDS ARE HOT.

Always remember and don't ever forget.

I'M IN LOVE

I'm totally "in love" with my new camera. I've been wanting and waiting and wanting a digital camera. Yes.....I was still using film. But I didn't want just any digital camera; I wanted a GOOD one.
I'm carrying it everywhere (it fits in my pocket) and taking pics of everything. I'm sure I'll be constantly uploading pics to Flickr. Guess I'll have to pay for the super-duper Flickr account so I can have more folders and stuff.

Wish us well.........................my camera and I!

More Prom Pics

More pics from my Saturday night adventures. Check out my flickr account for all pics (look to the right in my FAVORITES...........it's the fist link).

Prom Barbie

Behold. Prom Barbie!! Saturday night I was at a Prom party. That would be a party with a "theme". Done by my favorite party crowd. See previous entries called "Alien Girls" in March.

Everyone was dressed so fabulously, as expected; some women in serious evening gowns and some in bridesmaid dresses dragged from the far reaches of closets.

At first I had an image of myself in an 80's punk outfit; pink taffeta and black combat boots. But somehow I turned into Prom Barbie!! Morgan took me shopping and I found this sweet little pink dress that screamed for Barbie shoes and a tiara.

TGIFF

THANK GAWWD IT'S F&#@ING FRIDAY

OK. I am especially glad it's Friday night. Focusing and concentrating are no longer possible verbs in my vocabulary.

I cried A LOT this week. Here's my week in review:

Mon: watched the SERIES FINALE of Queer as Folk (QAF) .
I cried and cried. It was so sad to say goodbye to 5 years of relationships with these characters. And of course they had a special interview session with the actors and THEY were crying. To tell you the truth I was not happy with the ending of Brian and Justin. Brian had "grown a heart" just 2 episodes earlier and after all that he was left alone. How sad is that??!!
5 years! That's a long time. I watched almost EVERY episode in real time (or at least TiVo'd). QAF started at the same time I got divorced. The last 5 years has been mostly a solitary journey and QAF was a part of that journey.

Tues: watched what I thought was the SERIES FINALE of Six Feet Under. One of the main characters dies and much crying ensued. Thanks Clay for getting my hooked on this amazing show, and thanks for letting me know there are 2 more episodes. Whew..........

Wed: late night IM with Clay. For no reason in particular, our common walk down memory turned suddenly into a sad journey for me. Lost LOVE. FIRST LOVE. YOUNG LOVE. Can never be rerun. There is no "special DVD box set". And even if there was, it'll never be like the first time. That heavenly feeling of blinding passion. And while my heavily grounded common sense personality look a vacation, I walked along a lonely road. Looking back. Looking forward to a landscape with no fireworks, no heavenly light. Where is it? Where is he? How will I find him? And although I spent the next day working and laughing and smiling, I continued to walk with a heavy heart.

It's midnight on Friday night now (just "purned into a tumpkin"). For the most part, I've regained my senses. I wouldn't want to go back to being 18 or any other age because I like being 40. And I like being single. I just want that blinding passion. Once and awhile. Just that. But not all the other crap that comes with relationships. And sometimes I must mourn the loss of my first love, and although not comparable in scale, I will mourn the loss of ground-breaking shows like QAF and SFU.

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like i do
And i blame you

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
The Who

Reunions

I went to a reunion party for the first 5 years of graduating classes of Anacapa High School; so '83-'87 graduates. (The school is in downtown SB). The reunion happened in June but I finally got this pic off the website. The big teddy bear next to me is Teddy and Gordon is in the background. Gordon is the Headmaster of Anacapa. I attended Anacapa my senior year and it was the most amazing experience!!!
Teddy was the only other senior 'cause Anacapa has just started and most of the students came from SB's Middle School and were in younger grades. So me n Ted were the FIRST graduating class. Kinda cool, huh!!

My amazing experience at Anacapa was because it was a small, start-up school and because the Headmaster and his wife, Suzi, were 35 yr old hippies, and because he taught me world history (we learned a ton about Ghandi and others that were never part of any history I'd had before) and she taught yoga and art history, and we went on trips to Yosemite and Figeuroa Mtn. and spent the last week at Catalina.........all camping of course. We actually did a ton of schoolwork too. They guilted me into taking more French and Algebra, Ughhh.
We've had reunions over the years so it's been maybe 5-10 yrs since I've seen most of them. We had a beautiful dinner at 1129 State (whatever restuarant is there now). A lovely evening and a I'm-so-lucky-to-know-these-people kind of night!!!!

BTW, I'm sorry I haven't written in so long; there's no excuse. I read other blogs, like dooce.com and other favorites and I'm totally sad if there aren't new entries. Oh well, I probably don't have much of an audience 'cept myself so it's redundant to beat myself up.

First Impressions

http://whitestkids.com/video/pregnancytest.mov

Christopher sent me this link today. I was LOL for a REALLY long time. That kind of laughing that is abrupt and loud and your stomach hurts afterwards. Comic relief AND a stomach exercise; can't beat that!

You might not find it as hilarious as I did. You might not have an X that is an Apple fanatic and likes to tell you everything that is wrong with your computer is because it's NOT an Apple. You might not think relationships are ridiculously hard (hard I tell you), and are NEVER what they first appear to be. This video is a parody of my x-marriage. No kidding.

It has occurred to me lately that my relationship with my job is like a marriage. If you're in it for the long-haul, you have a different set of expectations. And if you didn't know this already, LIFE IS ALL ABOUT EXPECTATIONS!! The ups, downs, communication challenges, being in love, wanting to be loved, liked, whatever, is the same at work as it is in any relationship. I'm setting a record for the longest-running job I've ever had; 3 yrs and counting. It's HARD I tell you.

Back to EXPECTATIONS again. Try this little exercise: when you're feeling pissed off or happy or any emotion, THINK.............how do expections affect my attitude or feeling?? It's ALL about EXPECTA.........................oh you know what I'm saying!

Eyes are watching you

Eyes
Originally uploaded by Heather's Shot.

I finally got pictures from my X. He's taken so many great pics of our son this year and I've taken none.
I finally scrapbooked last week. First time in 9 months. I feel soooooo far behind but now I guess I'm like everyone else I know. (It's always comforting to know that others are more flaky than me).

I had quite the busy weekend although I'm not at all ready for Monday!!

Friday night was a crazy night that started at the Concerts in the Plaza listening to JnD, then dinner & drinks at Firestone with a friend, then ran into another friend and went for more drinks at Blue which has turned into a jazz super club, THEN the topper was The Graduate for Latino night. Who can say they danced to 3 totally different types of music at 3 totally different places in ONE night?!

I slept in Saturday and finally took my kid out at 3pm. I took him to Boomers where we played two rounds of miniature golf and did the go-karts. OMG. Then went to Tawna's and hung out and watched Willy Wonka. Good to see the original again. Can't wait to see the re-make.

Today was the usual Sunday; slept in, rode bikes, watched a lot of TV, & finally started laundry at 10pm. Glad we went to our friend's apt. for hanging out. I can't tell you how much I enjoy good female gabbing!!

It's almost midnight; time to "purn into a tumpkin".