Sunday, June 12, 2005
1 Degree of Separation
The movie CRASH is:
a must see
thought provoking
about human nature
about judgements
about assumptions
about "first impressions"
about the good and evil in every human being
You never know.............about people, about when and where and how your lives will intertwine.
Those are all the things that I am thinking about as I continue to feel the movie in the hours since seeing it. And yet the first thing I said when the movie was over is........."ohhhh the soundtrack is going to be great".
So I looked up the soundtrack for CRASH on iTunes and most of it is by a New Age artist named Mark Isham. His name doesn't sound familiar although I LOVE new age music. And so I purchased it and I am listening to it right now. And while on iTunes and discovered that Mark Isham did the music for the movie A River Runs Through It, Life As A House, Blade, & Last Dance. Amazing.
And then I looked at the soundtrack for Mystic River and discovered that Clint Eastwood is the musical artist. And he did the soundtrack for Million Dollar Baby. Who knew?!
And then I looked up music by Robbie Robertson because Marya can't say enough good things about him on her blog. He's Native American. I think I found his name when looking up Native American musicians with my friend Teri last month. Teri was on her way to Seattle to hook up with a group of Native American musicians. While Teri was visiting me I read her parts of Marya's blog and told her that if we had time I would have introduced them because I think they'd "click", (not knowing, of course, that they could talk about this common musical interest). And all the while reading on Marya's blog about recent re-connection with a high school buddy, at the SAME time having a similiar re-connection with Teri.
The .......evidence........that we are all inter-connected keeps building and building...........not just because I live in a small town. The UNIVERSE seems to be a small place, doesn't it????
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
My not-so-little buddy
I should write more about him to help remember all the little things that I'll forget someday. Motherhood is full of I shoulds............I should be more consistent, I should spend more time at his school, I should put him to bed earlier, I should limit his TV time, I should put more limits on him, I should cuss less, yell less, nag less, repeat myself less........
Motherhood is an amazing way to get to know yourself. All relationships with children, whether you're their parent, friend, family, honorary family, or next door neighbor, give you the opportunity to be so influential.
During my childhood I had many many adults that left an impression on my soul and will be apart of me forever. What a gift and isn't it great that this is true for every human being on the earth!
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Coming & Going
My trip to Hawaii last week was short but SWEET!
How cool to take photos under water! I will likely never be a diver (my ears are still unhappy about 2 days of snorkeling) but snorkeling is awesome! The quiet of being under water; flowing with the tides; listening to your own breath.. is very meditative.
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Teri & Heather 1979
At 14, Teri walked into the private school where I was "imprisoned" and I knew we were kindred spirits. She was wild and outrageous, and her hair was big and frizzy, for gawwd's sake!
We were WILD WILD girls. We were all grown up back then. We put on a good show, we did.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Teri & Heather April 2005
My dear old friend, Teri, showed up at my doorstep last month, and although almost 20 years had passed since we'd seen each other, we're still the same really.
We stayed up long into the night for a week talking and smoking and talking and smoking. We both just turned 40, a great turning point, a crossroads, a time to look back and a time to move forward. There have been husbands and children and homes and jobs, and we're still girls who just wanna have fun!
Teri has great stories that entertained me for hours. She's a musician, a music producer, a Scientologist, an activist, and still a free spirit. She's lived and worked with famous and not-so-famous musicians in England, Europe, and Africa, and is now back in the LA scene. Welcome back my friend!
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Alien Girls....ummm... I mean "normal earth girls"
That's me in the blue hair (and blue eyelashes)! It was yet another costume party by a group of friends I've been hangin' with lately. They have welcomed me into their amazing group of wild, interesting, and closeknit friends.
Dorene, the one with purple steaked hair on the right, and I worked together 10 yrs ago and was my masseuse for years. She recommended Morgan, top left with pink hair, for a job at my company last year. Morgan became my admin and my friend, and although she has moved on to another job, she will continue to be friend always. And she brought 3 more friends to the company I work for. Dorene in her late 40's and Morgan in her early 20's are great friends. They amaze and inspire me.
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Chico Spring 2005
I had a great Spring break with my best friends, Leslie & Linnea. I hadn't seen them in over a year which I think is the longest time we've gone in our 24 years of friendship! I'm not sure how either of those things happen; friendships that last 1/4 century and long lapses between visits.
Goodbye little red Saturn
I'm LOVIN' my new car; my sweet light green Toyota Rav. I will take a pic soon of me hugging my new friend (I swear it feels like a new friend).
I count my blessings; I enjoyed 6 weeks of free massages, I've got a good supply of painkillers which I may or may not ever use, and I got paid bluebook on my Saturn. Many, many blessings.
Monday, March 21, 2005
A flying leap of faith
I have finally made my plane reservations to go to Hawaii in May to see my nephew, Sy, graduate from the Univ. of Hawaii in Hilo. Yipppeeee!
I took this picture of Sy at my sister's place in Santa Ynez. My sweet, amazing child is watching his cousin in awe! Sy is just as this picture depicts him; wild, brave, seemingly carefree, and ever the Aquarian!
Before Wayne was my baby, Sy Sy was my "baby". I was 15 yrs old when my sister divorced and moved in with my dad and I, with 3 month old Sy Sy and 3 year old Jake. What a special gift that was to have these beautiful boys be such good life teachers!
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
We all look back, don't we?
A drunk driver smashed into the car behind me, and that car smashed into me, and I smashed into the Uhaul truck in front of me!!!
It was slow motion and then I heard Tawna calling my name through my cell and I reached around until I found it and said "you won't believe it, I'm in a car accident" or some such thing. What I do remember is that the front of my car was wedged into the back of this Uhaul truck.
My car is probably totaled (still waiting for the insurance assessment). What's left of my car sits in my driveway as a reminder of that crazy moment when my life changed (not sure how much at this point). As expected my neck started hurting the next day.
The OTHER crazy thing that happened on Monday (and the reason I was driving home at 3pm) was that I had an awful experience at work. I was blindsided in a meeting with what felt like a ROAST, an attack of testoterone flung at me. Men communicate so very differently than women, but knowing that somehow didn't help me from crying (a women's more natural way of expressing hurt and anger).
ALL OF THIS has led me to reflection..
about life and how I fit into it.
We all LOOK BACK but looking forward and being able to "go with the flow" is perhaps the BEST way to be prepared. I think I was tensed up and fearful when I went into that meeting at work, but that drunk driver came out of nowhere and being a ragdoll helped protect me from more harm.
BE A RAGDOLL is a visual I will conjure up the next time I am tense and bracing myself for the worst.
And always BE THANKFUL!!!!!!